"You think ‘Okay, I get it, I’m prepared for the worst’, but you hold out that small hope, see, and that’s what fucks you up. That’s what kills you."
Stephen King, “Joyland”  (via revoult)
I even look pretty okay tonight. Albeit a little tired, pale, and gay. But that’s okay.
I really wanna skype. ;~; please?
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I don’t normally post stuff like this, but does anyone wanna talk? Idk on the phone or Skype or just texting. If we’re in a mutual and you’re bored or whatever haha, feel free to message me or like this and I’ll message you and we can talk or somethin, I dunno.

I keep leaving my phone unattended for hours, and when I check on it, I feel this tiny shred of hope that maybe someone texted me or called but there is nothing. No one has ever called just because they missed my voice or didn’t feel like the day could be complete without hearing it. No one texts me in the middle of the night because they’re thinking so much of me that they can’t wait until morning. I do… did, all of those things, for a lot of different people over the years. Off the top of my head, I can’t remember anyone doing that to me. Maybe I’m forgetting something. I hope I am. Hope. Fucking liar, hope is.
sigh

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I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF HAVING BOOBS FUCK